Stability

I crave stability and plans. Plans that work out.

We had a blow to our plans this week. When Clint was hired, he was promised a certain  job,salary and monthly bonuses. The company made some changes at the start of the year and Clint's job responsibilities have changed. He is doing less which means bonuses have disappeared.

We can live without bonuses but everything just got tight. So tight that I started looking for a job. Having" just enough money" doesn't make life a lot of fun. No room for any extras. 

We have a trip to Mexico planned for next week, we just bought a new car, we had high hopes of buying a home when our lease in up in June. And now I regret doing all these things. 

We live frugally, we pay our tithing, we have a savings account. But here we are in our mid 30s and there is no stability. We are back to square one.

Yes, there is still a job. Thank goodness. Yes, we still have insurance. Thank goodness. Yes, we still have a roof over our heads. Thank goodness.

But the plans. The goals. Why are the Lord's plans so different for us?

Why do we seem to be getting the same lesson over and over and over?